Working for a few weeks straight now, had about an hour off on Sunday before i got my new group. Did another prayer tour that felt as though i was simply telling facts about the city. Trying to be pumped with this new group of kids. So the most recent struggle, :) my understanding of complete trust even on the things that i could do on autopilot but how much more amazing Jesus' words and plan is. The act of removing myself from the picture, putting aside desires, longing, stupid thoughts, erasing my pursuit of something that Nicole wants and simply saying i lay it all down, even though it's what i long for. A whole new level of surrender.
I miss music. Miss some people. Miss the atmosphere at a show, the people being lost in the beauty of it. I wonder if this is selfish. Was talking with one of my room mates about some of the projects on the south side and how they were being torn down yet there wasn't any thing good being built in its place. I got so angry... these people living in a horrible thing like the projects are now being pushed out of their homes or into continued crappy circumstances. Nothing is being done, these people, living out a cycle. waiting for their life to end, waiting to be the ones caught in cross fire, waiting to see the chances dwindle for their kid to make it to college and find a new life. One of my groups this weekend said that it's a third world country in our city limits. The sad thing? This statement bears an extreme amount of truth.
can i please just say, i absolutely love my roomies!!!!! holy crap, so many incredible moments of laughter. holy cow. i absolutely cherish them
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