"we go older but we're still young"

So after a random trip to California and then Idaho the next weekend, i find myself here. Home for the first night in a long while. All i crave is to be back out on the road again. To be traveling, laughing, living with people who are crazy but genuine. This is a road that i could never ever have ever dreamed or imagined for. A group of friends who go for it, live a dream without any question, a future job that lets me do what i was trained and born for, and a summer/ a season that is created to make memories, to go forth in the person i was created to be... So here it comes, a life that is nothing but living moment by moment with Him, created to love and live. To be real, experience life. haha i don't think that it's even set in yet that we were all in Cali together :)

i've learned a lot about myself. my desires heart's desires to do ministry different. to be set apart in my actions and in my convictions. I'm not willing to conform, don't want the sterile lifestyle, but want to be there, in the pit, pouring out the love that He has given me.

i couldn't have asked for life to be better. People think that the choice to go to Cali with Ashton and the boys was out of order and then to come back with my septum pierced... that i've gone off the deep end, am choosing to live a double life. haha but really.. honestly... this is where i'm supposed to be. This is my declaration that i'm not going to destroy the love and connection that i have with my Jesus.. i'm not willing to throw that on the line for this... He's placed me here, blessed me with these people and all i can seem to do is crave to be around them. To laugh, experience, stay up till insane hours, drive at even worse hours, to be real, and be alive...
thank you Jesus for this future. for this life. You are my everything. My life source that i take every perfect breath from. Jesus thank you for the past few months.. nothing compares... nothing beats it... here we come summer! the power in His name, the power to speak truth in the darkest places is real. Don't underestimate it, don't doubt it, He's going to provide NO MATTER WHAT... TRUST His promises....sing at the top of your lungs, dance like there's no one looking, savor ever moment... BE HIS. Be real and who you were created to be. We only have one life to live. So go for it and DREAM BIG.
Daddy, thank you for everything!!!!!!!!!!! your baby girl loves you! :)