Fall

it's been awhile since i've written.
SO many things have happened. I've started playing music again. Am starting a new job as Program Staff at the Boys and Girls Club. mmm i'm calling Reality Church home.
sheesh!!!

This season will bring on new and uncharted territory. i can feel it. anxious. curious. Hoping for Jesus' everything to be displayed through my every action and breath. Jesus is doing so much, has laid everything into such a place that i could never have imagined and i feel as though i'm just walking through it, every step in more and more awe of what He's doing... not really absorbing it but more trying to keep the head above water. even though i know He's the only one who has it under control. How could i have asked for such a papa who loves me? who actually cares about me in ways that i couldn't have even dreamed.
music. sheesh. music... it's been an adventure. new. refreshing. something that consumes me. wanting to become a better musician. that's a new one :)
People. new. loving them in a new way. understanding even when in my flesh i can not. watching the love of Jesus overtake and consume. Complete transformation in those who bear burdens beyond their grasp. Those called into beauty by their romancer. their Jesus. mmmm

Thinking about my YC kids lately. having a new love for them. maybe it's the season, or maybe it's something that Jesus is doing. We'll see i suppose.

Keeping back. laying in His arms for every second. breath, experience. laughter filled moment. Joy. truth. reality. organic transparency. New. This ride will never be the same, never be routne, thankful for the constant provision beyond what i could express or imagine. He knows. He cares. loves me :) experiencing that. This adventure, journey, newness is life, sensing the rest of this life to be as the same as this new season. Expression, experience, love, genuine love displayed only by the Jesus Christ is consuming, taking over, clarity brought to full existence...

Fashioned as His clay, my soul longs and waits for the experiences to love through His eyes and only His eyes.