hmmm i sit here and think about the kids that i used to have. the high school students who craved nothing more than a place to be themselves, a support system that genuinely loved them and believed in them. For a season, this was the YC, for all of us it was a season that we could not put a price on, that we will never have back and will never fully understand the impact that was made. As staff each one of us chose to give up things to see these kids lives changed and now ,we each are going seperate ways, being pulled from olympia, and learning more and having Jesus' complete blessing poured over us. Each being given the desires of our heart's. New, exciting, challenging, and refreshing. It's crazy to think back on those 10 or so months that were filled with tears, stress, and the constant of days draining into days without a breath. ahh the nights spent in the ER with the students that are burned into my heart or the days of laughter and hugs in Seattle. I will never forget the beauty of what happened in a little youth center in downtown Oly....
It's weird to think that it was ever a part of our lives. that it ever had anything to do with who i am now. haha but it had so much, it shaped me into the bold, strong/ weak person that i am today. taught me so much. Shaped every one of us as leaders, showed us passion and the raw love of Jesus Christ.
Though it may not be a part of me now, may not be where i'm working. it will always be a huge part of me. I may never do anything like it again, but Jesus, my precious Daddy, i will forever be grateful for where You've put me, the places and people that i've encountered over the last year. It's been a season that will forever remain driven into my soul.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Hurting
Why do we choose to put musicians, actors, great speakers, etc. up on such a high place? why do we choose to make them out to be above all other society? Choose to idolize them, act dumb when we're around them, act as though we've never seen another human being with skin.
They are people, people who have stories. They've been through shit, survived the waves that life has thrown at them. They have a story waiting to be told, they have experienced crap, been through parent's divorce, had their heart broken, dealt with drug problems. Each of them is a person, screaming to be acknowledged as that.
Us "normal" people crave relationship, crave friendship and having a family whether friends or blood. These "famous" people crave the same... why the hell do you think they have drug problems? because they're alone, miserable, and craving people, craving relationships with "normal" people. In reality we're the ones who screw over those poor people. We isolate them and choose to not treat them as people. It's really our fault that they're screwed up... what the hell are we doing? messing with people's hearts and emotions and not treating them as a normal human being... we need to learn how to be normal, how to become real and not care about social titles. They're slowly destroying our worth as people and our society. It's taking away any originality any last ounce of personality and squishing it to the floor. The "famous" loose themselves to be what society is craving, conforming and desiring to sell more and more to the world.... Really? what the hell are we doing to our culture? to the next generation that is going to have to deal with finding themselves and having absolutely no way of finding originality. They will be taught to conform, taught to seek what is "in" or what the person you admire is.
Be real. Be original.Be yourself. Don't let anyone tell you different. Love your skin, the one that you were created to be in. Walk in the giftings, the calling, He's placed inside of us, called forth through all of us, giftings created unique to each person. USE them, walk more confident and strong than you could have ever imagined in them, that's when you'll find true happiness, true joy and satisfaction. You can stand in a group of people and know that no matter how drunk they all are, no matter how horrible a situation, no matter the person's social status you are you and you're walking strong and confident in WHO YOU WERE CREATED TO BE... This will bring a smile to your face and your heart will be satisfied for the first time in your life.
They are people, people who have stories. They've been through shit, survived the waves that life has thrown at them. They have a story waiting to be told, they have experienced crap, been through parent's divorce, had their heart broken, dealt with drug problems. Each of them is a person, screaming to be acknowledged as that.
Us "normal" people crave relationship, crave friendship and having a family whether friends or blood. These "famous" people crave the same... why the hell do you think they have drug problems? because they're alone, miserable, and craving people, craving relationships with "normal" people. In reality we're the ones who screw over those poor people. We isolate them and choose to not treat them as people. It's really our fault that they're screwed up... what the hell are we doing? messing with people's hearts and emotions and not treating them as a normal human being... we need to learn how to be normal, how to become real and not care about social titles. They're slowly destroying our worth as people and our society. It's taking away any originality any last ounce of personality and squishing it to the floor. The "famous" loose themselves to be what society is craving, conforming and desiring to sell more and more to the world.... Really? what the hell are we doing to our culture? to the next generation that is going to have to deal with finding themselves and having absolutely no way of finding originality. They will be taught to conform, taught to seek what is "in" or what the person you admire is.
Be real. Be original.Be yourself. Don't let anyone tell you different. Love your skin, the one that you were created to be in. Walk in the giftings, the calling, He's placed inside of us, called forth through all of us, giftings created unique to each person. USE them, walk more confident and strong than you could have ever imagined in them, that's when you'll find true happiness, true joy and satisfaction. You can stand in a group of people and know that no matter how drunk they all are, no matter how horrible a situation, no matter the person's social status you are you and you're walking strong and confident in WHO YOU WERE CREATED TO BE... This will bring a smile to your face and your heart will be satisfied for the first time in your life.
Monday, May 4, 2009
abstract
There's something about taking yourself out of a place of comfort to a place where nothing is the norm. New people, new conversations, different adventures. You view yourself differently, you think about your life as you watch people living their dream. It made me think about my dreams, about my desires.... the things that make me truly excited that make me long for change, the conversations that i desire to have.... Helped me realize who i really am, why i love, why i bother dreaming and living in the moment, in every second for Him. Gosh dang it... It makes me wonder. Makes me question and think about the choices that we make.
You meet people with the same interests, same desires, people who make your heart go crazy, have conversations that make you wonder about what happiness could really be. It's all the unknown. Part of this crazy ride that we call life. A life that's nothing more than living for Him, that's nothing more than being sold out. people will come in and out of your life, but it's the matter of staying so strong and so true to who He's created you to be that the person, the right person that makes your heart go crazy, that person will fall in line with your path.
I genuinely love who i am, who i am becoming. crave to be desired, crave to be pouring out and encouraging, crave to give hugs, and laugh, a laugh that sets my soul on fire. Crave conversation. I know it will come. in due time, that He will not let one of my heart's desires go unbreathed. I will sleep head on the pillow, the mind full of hopes and dreams, wishing that this weekend wasn't just a good time, wasn't just a dream, if it was i will rest well in a few weeks, with the mind at easy with the new friends and conversations that were made...
Thank you my precious Jesus for this life, for the place. a place that i could never have dreamed of or ever imagined encountered on my own. I'm in love with HIM, who YOU. take my steps, Organize my steps, my thoughts, my breaths, desires, and dreams. Let them take your flight and your control like never before. Daddy, thank you for this ride... TO you i am so grateful.
good night. may your dreams take you to a place of hope and purpose.
You meet people with the same interests, same desires, people who make your heart go crazy, have conversations that make you wonder about what happiness could really be. It's all the unknown. Part of this crazy ride that we call life. A life that's nothing more than living for Him, that's nothing more than being sold out. people will come in and out of your life, but it's the matter of staying so strong and so true to who He's created you to be that the person, the right person that makes your heart go crazy, that person will fall in line with your path.
I genuinely love who i am, who i am becoming. crave to be desired, crave to be pouring out and encouraging, crave to give hugs, and laugh, a laugh that sets my soul on fire. Crave conversation. I know it will come. in due time, that He will not let one of my heart's desires go unbreathed. I will sleep head on the pillow, the mind full of hopes and dreams, wishing that this weekend wasn't just a good time, wasn't just a dream, if it was i will rest well in a few weeks, with the mind at easy with the new friends and conversations that were made...
Thank you my precious Jesus for this life, for the place. a place that i could never have dreamed of or ever imagined encountered on my own. I'm in love with HIM, who YOU. take my steps, Organize my steps, my thoughts, my breaths, desires, and dreams. Let them take your flight and your control like never before. Daddy, thank you for this ride... TO you i am so grateful.
good night. may your dreams take you to a place of hope and purpose.
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