Wishing i could hold them in my arms

With San Fancisco came late night conversations and things that could have never created on my own. Conversations with ladies who were so passionate about people, those destroyed by the world's standards of success. It took a special type of person to fall in love with the people they encountered on a regular day. The little boys laced with fear of guns and gangs, the homeless who's daily joy came from the kind people who fed them soup at night, or the cancer filled body of a woman so desperate to not die alone in a pit of a room. These people, society's lowest are the most incredible. Their stamina to survive, laugh, cry, care about the other people they encounter like them is untouchable.
I couldn't be more grateful to have spent even a short 4 days with the beautiful people in the bay area. I may not be going to back for what i thought or maybe i will? who knows. I know from being there with Him that i won't walk any other way but directly towards His arms of grace. Yes, i have a heart that longs desperately for the beautiful people of the bay but i know my greatest striving is to love people in the place He's got me. I know that seems like a simple concept but when there's a people you fall in love with and you know at some point in your life you will spend time with them, not just visit, everything inside of you conflicts to be back in a place where everyone knows you. I know, i know i will see them again and that in itself makes my heartstrings ring.
Sitting on the floor the second night i was there, talking with the two lovely female city hosts about loving people, the simplicity of looking at people through Jesus glazed eyes, talking about going home to the reality that no one could understand the people we saw and experienced love for, 3 girls, completely transparent and real, expressing struggles and our greatest hearts conflicts and desires. No matter how many times throughout the summer they had to say the same facts about a people or district their heart's bled with compassion for those they knew only Jesus could save. Being in that environment with them, all of us on the same playing field in many ways, being allowed the opportunity to talk and be sincere. I couldn't have asked for a better trip. I wonder what life will be like or where i will stand when i visit or come back to the bay area.
I will serve where ever He calls. I'm excited for the conversations with new friends in Olympia, to love and encourage. Thankful that the curiosity and some of the waiting i had to endure is out of the way. I will gladly sit back and worship with my Jesus. Experience Him and enjoy every second. Fall has officially hit :) i think i'm pretty much gosh darn excited :)

mmm and did i mention i'm enjoying music like never before :) and i'm freaking ok with it? :) haha it think this season is going to be a pretty freaking great one.